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When did you first realize you were attracted to men?
I was wondering when you all first realized you were attracted to other men and how it made you feel? Did you accept your attraction - explore it more - want to have a relationship or sexual experience with another male? Did it scare you?
In my case - The first time I can remember being attracted to another male was when I was 15 - I was in a bookstore and was sneaking peaks at girlie magazines (Playboy, Hustler, Penthouse Type) and next to those there was a gay magazine - I remember picking it up and opening it - and saw beautiful naked men, with fully erect penis and I remember saying to myself wow - and flipping the pages and finding men kissing and giving each other blow jobs and saying again wow - I was immediately draawn to the beauty of two men making love - I could not put the magazine down - until I found a couple of others there too ! I think from that moment on while I still had some attraction to women - I began noticing men, began imagining their bodies naked, imagining making love with them. I remember shortly afterwards finding a book in Walden's Books - The Joy of Gay Sex - I must have read that book for hours in the store that day and tried to memorize everything I read - I loved the art and images ! I remember the sales lady (in her late 20's if I remember) seeing me reading it and smiling at me - then passing me again and saying " My brother has that book and he and his boyfriend love it!" I smiled back and then ran from the store embrassed - but I think she was trying to help me accept and embrace my homosexuality as her brother had.
Over time I obviously became more comfortable and at 19 made love with my first boyfriend for the first time - and even though it did no last it was a nice relationship and he introduced me to other gay people and bars and from there I met other lovers.
I remember my first time making love - it was incredible for me to finally feel and touch and kiss and be kissed by another man. Recieving my first blow job and then giving him one was awesome. I remember tasting his semen and loving it and loving the feel of him spurting his cum into my mouth.
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Posted 1 year ago by Member
Joe, what a lazy lot our fellow forum members are. I first started noticing men at the age of 8 or 9. I loved going to the beach and watching men in their speedos - none of those awful swimming shorts in those days, everthing was tight and bulging. At a relatively early age I'd get a hard on, but even then didn't think this was sexual attraction ! My early masturbation fantasies were of muscle men. I reckon at the age of 14 or 15 I realised I was different but , apart from groping boys at school and one visit to the urinals with a class-mate nothing happened. I was slow at getting going because of lack of opportunity, shyness and inhibition from my upbringing. So, I was in my twenties when I first knew the total bliss of being naked in the arms of another man and having that first rough stubbly kiss. I lost my virginity at last to a lovely man who fucked me gently, expertly and deep. I was on cloud nine and haven't looked back since.
Posted 1 year ago by Member
This topic has such an emotionally charged connotation for me. It wasn't until junior high that I had any feeling below the waist AT ALL......but that was probably due to abuse at an early age. But sometime when I was in the 8th or 9th grade I saw a body-building mag in a small grocery store and was drawn to it. When I looked at it in the store, I felt somewhat sick to my stomach......but attracted powerfully to it. Then I found that when I used a urinal in public I was surprised how large other guys' penises looked to me. And I liked it. I foolishly mentioned that to my best friend and lost my friend instantly. But through the years the photos of muscle guys got better and better and I got harder and harder. But I was soooo suppressed by my parents and society that I put that away in my mind (compartmented they call it) and got married because that is what guys did. I wish to this day I thought for myself......or maybe I wish I felt secure in myself to say, "Fuck the world" and went in my natural direction. My sister's boyfriend initiated me into gay sex when he blew me (I was 16) but I had to suppress that too. But I loved it!! Oh, how I loved it!! It felt natural even though I hated the guy. (My feelings were oh so complicated.) But I went into therapy in 1995 and have been at it ever since. Now things are better......I have a wonderful, wonderful partner and life is much more authentic.
Posted 1 year ago by Member
At age six, my friend and I used to strip down and lie naked in a neighbor's enclosed yard tent. I can remember being overcome by a breathless, heart pounding, something as I watched his naked form and butt and me being naked next to him. I feel like I was always "interested" in men my own age and attempted to have a sexual encounter with my friends through freshman year in high school. Somethimes not always a successful encounter, but, wow, in eighth grade, I was just talking to a new friend who enquired if I know what a blow job was. We found a private outdoor space where we stripped and gave each other hand jobs and blow jobs, and what a complete pleasure. I was in heaven and lost my virginity. At the same time I knew I was very interested in muscled males and always hung around with them, admiring them, studying their arms and chests. I started working out in eighth grade and began to develop my own muscle in hopes of attracting like interested men through high school and beyond. I competed in muscle shows and looked the part, just loving the attention given me by other males while in my speedos. I worked for Bally as Personal Trainer, clinching the hire because I was muscled and veiny. I was fortunate in finding my partner who has pumped and developed his muscle to equal mine. I love being entwined in muscled arms and legs. There is nothing finer than male muscle and feeling my cock respond to, and become a pleasureable part of another male with each hot chocolate cum shot.
Posted 11 months ago by Member
There was no one moment, where it was all decided where my sexual interests lay. It was more like a series of moments. I'll just mention the few notable ones that stuck out in my mind.
The first time I must have been around 12 (a junior), I was at secondary school. It was summer and the senior boys would be playing football (soccer) in lunchtime. Sometimes, when it got warm, one team would play topless. There was one guy who caught my eye, he had a great torso, not rugged (looking back on it, I don't think he trained), but muscular and shapely, with noticable nipples. I always used to steal a glance at him running around, from the other side of the sports grounds. Not too sure what it was, I didn't equate that with sexual attraction, but I was interested and enjoyed admiring his 'beauty'. That was the first time. That guy left school shortly afterwards. I didn't think anything more of it.
Later, I was placed in a boarding school, which I didn't enjoy in the slightest. This was the first time, I'd been with other guys my age, we were about 15 years of age and there about 11 of us in total, sharing a dormitory. So we all had to dress and undress there in front of everyone else. In the mornings when getting ready for breakfast, and in the evenings when changing into our pyjamas before going to bed. A system was adopted in the dorm, whereby the person changing would shout out "warning" then strip off, to spare the unsuspecting person the sight of their nudity. Ok, there was this one guy, I'll call him GL. He was well built, no exaggeration. He had very broad shoulders, large chest and back, small waist, flared thighs and large calves and a nice ass. One time, I noticed him "accidentally" (it was literally an accident), I just thought "wow", he had such a big nut sack and what appeared to be a large cock. There were only on display briefly before he quickly put his pants on. I never realised men could be so well put together. I was envious of him.
GL belonged to the group that did bully the 'weaker' members of the dorm. At night after lights went out. The talk amongst the more assertive members of the dorm (which included GL), would be of sex with women. Then one of them would circulate "girlie" magazine between them. They would either use a torch and wank (masturbate) under the sheets, or go to the toilet with the magazine. GL, usually would go to toilet with the magazine. My bed faced the door to the toilet, so you could clearly see outline of person entering or leaving the toilet. GL clearly did have a big bulge. When he came out from the toilet you could see his cock bouncing up and down. I'd go to sleep imagining witnessing GL, bringing himself off over the magazine in the toilet. I'd imagine him shooting large spurts of cum. That was the first real "gay" experience I had.
Sometimes humiliation was practised. The weaker members of the dorm and the unpopular ones, were picked on. At night, GL, Cotton and Mongie (other members of the trio). Of which GL was the biggest would fool around sexually by teasing each other, flexing, doing press ups, chin ups, punching one another in the abdomen flexing their abs etc. Of which GL would always win, (he was the best built), however Cotton was the best fighter as he was taught how to box professionally. So GL never had things all his own way. After they would be finished posing and testing one another. They'd cruelly pick on a weaker dorm member and grab the head of the victim and shove his face into the arm pits of one of them and make him lick them, or they'd put the victims head or face in their ass and rub their ass on the victim's head or face. Two of the bullies would be holding the victim, and if the victim didn't do as they wanted they would be picked on more viciously later. Needless to say, I thought it was always hot when GL had his pits licked or rubbed his muscled ass over someone's head. Fortunately for me, I was not picked on in that way. Then I kind of knew, but thought it would go away or that I may be bi (sexual) or something, and forgot about it.
Fast forward several years, I'd finished school. I was on the internet and came across a pornographic site. There was a picture of bodybuilder I'd seen from photo shoots of competitions , it was Victor Terra. It was a side shot of him, he was on all fours ie (hands and knees). He was facing the camera smiling, he had no posers on, you couldn't see his genitals, as they were covered by one of his thighs, but you could see his ass and thighs. I was drawn to his ass (so beefy) initially but my eyes ran over the whole picture, thick legs and back and dense traps. He looked so powerful, so strong, so manly. Then I knew for sure, I am gay.
Posted 11 months ago by Member
When I was around 11 or 12, my parents used to send me to YMCA camps for the summer. It was always hard for me to conceal
my young lust for some of the counselors who were heavily in bodybuilding. Once, my counselor saw me rubbing my cock while looking at him "surreptitiously." He smiled back, came over, and then popped an incredible baseball-like bicep in my face. "Can I touch it?," I asked. He obliged me and asked if I liked it. Of course, you know I did, and I told him so. He asked me to follow him to a relatively deserted part of the camp where nobody usually came around. He told me he "was gonna show me something even nicer" - which is when he took off his shirt (oh, my god!!!), and then put my hand on his crotch. It was hard, and the feel of it got me hard, too. He had me take his cock out from his pants and gently held my face in his hands while he pushed down and then slowly slid his thick, hard dick in my mouth. I LOVED it. We had to be very discreet, though. Later that summer, we were caught by the camp director, however, when he spotted us in that same remote part of the camp where my counselor first fucked my face and blew me, just before any clothes came off, that is. Very close call! But to be seduced by such a muscular guy at that age burned muscle sex in to my very early adolescent brains. It gets me hard just to write this, or to read "first times" like Kobypdx's above. Wow! :)
Posted 7 months ago by Member
I knew I fancied guys when I was 9 or 10, before I moved on to high school, but there my coach made me the muscle worshipper I am today. About 26, 5'10" and superbly toned and bronzed - and this was england so not that common - he had ripped arms and shoulders, a killer chest and the most incredible 6 pack I had seen outside muscle mags. I longed for the days when we had sessions - I even joined the swim team to spend more time with him. He knew I fancied him as a "friend" told him! That seemed to make him more open - he started wearing tight vests, sometimes practically see-through and used to ask me to stay back and help. These were the sessions I most remember - he would organise equipment, lifting heavy bars and mats and to stop him getting too hot would slowly strip off his tops, showing me that amazing torso I used as wank material every night. He knew I loved his muscles and before I left - this was three years in the making - I got brave enough to ask to feel his arms. He let me roam across his biceps, and then I felt his chest and let me hands run down to his abs. This was too much and I blew a load in my shorts. Sadly nothing else happened with him but god I wish he'd been my first fucker. As it was the first guy to fuck me was supremely athletic and loose. Not only could he easily swallow my prodigious dick - 9' uncut and 6'girth (I blame the excessive jerking off)- but took it bareback with ease and he was flexible enough on only our second fuck session to screw my ass with me on my back and simultaneously blow me off. Coming in another guys mouth while he cums in your ass is one of the sweetest things. Wasn't til years later that I actually got to fuck serious muscle, but boy was it worth the wait.
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